so today i went to the carnival again, and i think im tired of them now. No more until the timber carnival decides to roll its ass around. Ugh. It wasnt even half as much as fun as it was last night. But guess what?! I saw Ricky for like 2 seconds. And we were at target and he rode by on his bike to the carnival and then like dropped it off over by the gravitron and like he wanst there at all. So when i was on the fickin ferris wheel hes over by the old emporium. grrr. i wanted to talk to him! oh well tho.

I was on this ride thing and i was like thinking of Jordon the whoooole time. I don't know, i just could not get him off my mind. So i was just like Moping around and not having fun and everything. Why do i get like that whenever i do think about him?! I don't think about him much. I used to. But not no more. *shrugs*

My sister, shes like frickin selfish. She doesnt do shit around the house and whenever sumone asks her to 'come here' she throws a fucking fit. and then i'm the one who has to go do whatever she was sposed to do. I soooo can not wait until this summer when i can get away from her.

Well i am sick again, and uhh, i am gonna hit the sack super duper early tonight. I still feel like im on that dayum gravitron. (The guy who works it is hella fine =P ) Until next time kidders

So last night, i had the best time at the carnival. I met this Amazing guy named Ricky. Yah but i dont want to get into that...ok well yes maybe i will...Ok read the convo that i wrote to rissa,..

+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
man i had the greatest time last night
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and i met the most amazing guy
AlL Of ThIs - I Found A Reason For Me, To Change Who I Used To Be, A Reason To Start Over New...And The Reason Is You says:

AlL Of ThIs - I Found A Reason For Me, To Change Who I Used To Be, A Reason To Start Over New...And The Reason Is You says:
where did ya go!?!
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
Carnival
AlL Of ThIs - I Found A Reason For Me, To Change Who I Used To Be, A Reason To Start Over New...And The Reason Is You says:
ohhh
AlL Of ThIs - I Found A Reason For Me, To Change Who I Used To Be, A Reason To Start Over New...And The Reason Is You says:
well tell me about tha guy then!!
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
ok well...
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
me and uhhh...megan we were on the Spider
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and i was hella hyper and being dumb
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and like i look down and theres these 2 guys walking and im all "HIIII!!!!"
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and the one (ricky) was all like "hey there" and we were all spinning and shit
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and im all "whats your name?!" and hes all "ricky" and im all "OH KEWL!!! My names fred!!!"
AlL Of ThIs - I Found A Reason For Me, To Change Who I Used To Be, A Reason To Start Over New...And The Reason Is You says:
lol!
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and like we were talking
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and im all
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
ok well call me and hes all "well get down here and give me your number"
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
so im all "555-1234"
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
lol then he disapeared...then like he came back and i was like stalking him and we wud talk every once in a while
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
then like we were at uhh the cotton candy place
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and like we was walking towards me and like he like playfully punched me
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
so i turn around and im all "ok mr. RICKY, dont touch me" and he looked at me and im all "naaaah jussss jokin"
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
then like he lefted sumwheres
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and like were ready to leave
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and hes all "WAIT!!"
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and im all "whaaat?" and hes all "u cant leave without saying bye to me!"
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
so like i went over there and im all "bye ricky" and he hugged me...and hes all "bye fred"

Ok and i dont feel like typing THIS again...so yah read this one too!!...lol ok

+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
yah
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
we walked home and it was like 11 pm
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and we were walking thru Hollywood video parking lot. And like there were loads of people with hella loud music n cars...n like 10 guys that were there , well 3 of them decided to honk their horns hella loud...and they started asking us how old we were so we ignored them and started walking then like we hear a car and i turn around and im all "ooh here they come"
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
so like we were crossing the highway thing well elisia sara and brooke were....they were like running
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and this car pulls up to me and i start talking to him...and hes all "how old are you?" and im all "i dont know, how old are YOU?"
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
so like i cross the street and like they turned around and then i thought they were leaving
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
oh but NOOOO...they like went across the highway and started following us
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and this time it was 2 cars...
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and like they went to the end of the road and turned around and im all "ahhh shit" and so like they drive up beside us again and are all "HOW OLD ARE YOU?"
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and saras all "FOURTEEEEEEEN"
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and hes all "oh...dayum.." and im all "ya fuckers"
:+:Mandi:+: [Rainbow Brite] says:
and they got pissed n left


LATER KIDDERS!!!

(names with a * after them=not their real name)

Morning kidders! Today i am feeling a little better. I guess. Last night, after i got off, it was AWESOME!!! ok so i went over to brookes and we walked to the store to get sum gum. well u know those flower things and u like blow on them and the lil fuzzy things fly? Ok. everytime i saw one i picked it up and said =-something that u dont need to know-= and like blew on it. Lol. ok and then we got to the store and the guy had BLUE HAIR!! im like "i like your hair!!" and hes all "thanks" like in a...sleepy voice. So i shutted up. Then on the way home we saw a dead animal. and i started hugging TREEEES!! lol ((tree hugger)) and i hugged 20 trees. soooo we came home and just sat on the curb for about an hour ((we always sit on the curb...its fun!)) and there was something goin on at CmS so we was trying to figure it out. Then im all "watch this" and i took a big rock and threw it at the JR painting truck that was across the lil street and the dude came out of his house and told us to stop. so i said "okie dokie" then he went back inside and i did it again only with little rocks. Lol it was great. then hmmm. Oh yah, we were sitting there like laffing and this chick rolls down her window and goes "HI AMANDA!!!" and im like "hi....whoever u are" lol. hmmm. I have to stay after today and i am going to the carnival AFTER i get home and change and everything. Im going to ask John if he wants to meet us there becuz ya. I doubt he will want to tho, but hey thats alrighty. Hmmm. i just want to make shurr im leaving nothing out. OH!! i finished my kangaroo thingy for art! Its loverly i will have to show everyone. Ok what i did was ((for those of u who DONT know)) i took a linoleum block and maded a kangaroo and put that prniting ink shiyat on it and make prints! ones in white and the other is ummm....Blue.. ya. Well i have like 2 minutes so i need to hurry. Today is gonna be a good day. Cuz i am going to the carnival for 2 hours. ((only becuz we are going SO late cuz me and ya u dont care)). Everyone have an awesome day/weekend/life!!

Bye kidders!

*sigh*
im extremely tired today
i dont know why really.
Too much thinking i guess.
ya.
thats it.
Well i didnt stay after today.
Lord knows how much touble ill be in tomorrow.
heh.
Tomorrow.
Me, sara, brooke, kayla and megan are going to the carnival.
Its gonna be kewl.
I guess.
Getta go on the rides till we get hella sick.
Fun?
You know it!
I guess ill have to take pictures
I doubt that they will work tho.
COnsidering the fact that, they will erase before i even get the chance to download them.
Stupid piece of shiyat camera that i got.
heh.

Right now.
I feel like i need to OD or something.
I feel so,
blah.
Not necessarily happy.
Not necessarily upset.
just.
Blah.
All my emotions have gone down the drain.
Im never happy.
Im never sad.
I dont really care about anything and/or anyone anymore.
And these non-stop headaches.
They drive me insane.

Well kidders.
Im going to go do something worth doing.

well this morning, i woke up late...lol...so now i am waiting tilll 8:41 so i can leave, and not be late for second period. fun huh!? Yah. So i dont know how today is gonna turn out im really tired, and have alot of work to catch up on. It sucks so much. I hate this. ITS GAAAAAAAAAY! Also, considering the fact that i have to stay after tuesday, wednesday, AND friday just to damned school work, isnt helping me any. Its not like the grades count anyways. So what? Im failing 3 classes. No one REALLY cares about it. Its my life...they all can just fuck all. And really, when i say all. I mean all of you. no one knows what i go thru day after day and they put all this bullshit pressure on me and make my life even MORe miserable. Welll, my time to leave has come, Ill write more later...i guess...love u all lots

well ive been busy for quite a while. Trying to get my whole "Social Life" back. I've been thinking and i decided that i shudnt wait around my whole life just for one person. I need to get out. Well the weekend was great, i went to the carnival and everything. and im going back to the carnival again this weekend! Its gonna be great, this time we're getting wrist bands, cuz its better. Why pay like a dollar a ticket?! and each ride is 4 tickets. So we decided just to get the wrist bands.

So anyways, i have been listening to 'Dont tell me' by avril lavigne alot lately. Its pretty kewl i guess. I don't necessarily like avril. But this song is definitely one of her best.

I worked today. 2 hours. (10am till 12 pm) for 30$. Its kewl i guess. But hey, atleast i can go to the carnival now! Yippy Skippy! No, i did not go to school today, i figured why go? I needed time to be alone, So i worked and i just sat.

Well, from now until the end of the school year, i am having to stay after tuesday-friday. HELLA GAY! errr, I dont necessarily HAVE to stay after on wednesday, but its something to do. but i HAVE to stay after on tuesday, thursday, and friday. grrr. This pisses me off so much. I want to move =( Oh but nooooo. I can't go live with my mom because of what happened in the 'past' with my step-dad. Oh big fuckin deal. I beleive he didnt do anything.

Yes, well, i am gonna go, since i am getting yelled at now.

LOVE YOU ALL LOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTSSS!!!