4.23.2004

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong

Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby


I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy


And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away


And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

what is there to say?! Uhhh...things are going good. New term begins monday so im gonna try my hardest to do better. We're starting speeches (shit!). This outta be good. Still no word from jordon. Im guessing things between us are pretty much over. Oh well. I knew he didnt like me anyways. Hmmm. John is mad at me (grrr on him) and no one else really seems to give a shit!

Im pretty tired so im gonna see if i can go get some sleep....bye byes!

4.18.2004

So this weekend is coming to an end... Lets review it...shall we?

Friday--Stayed after school, then came home and got online for a while, then went over to brookes, we ordered pizza and dressed up for the pizza man, then we watched a movie ((i wish i cud remember what it was=/)) After the movie we went to bed, that was all that happened...

Saturday--One of the better days of my weekend. Lets see, well the day was kinda boring at first, then we went to go pick up sara, then we went to the mall, and freddys, and got sum new things. That was kewl, then we walked home and we were loud as hell and we saw will and korey and were talking to them. But i made new friends. Ok this is how i make friends, when i walk on the street and wave or say hi to sumone and they wave or say hi back, that means that they are my friend. Ok so anyways we got home and decided that we wanted to go to the park for a while, well john just happened to be there, he cudnt see me and im all 'bastard' and im all 'yah, you john' and he loooked at me and hes all 'who the hell are u?' and so i got up and he hugged me...so im like...ya...but anyways then we talked for a while then they left , so we just sat at the park. Then we went home and drank some =P. And did sum stuff and called sum people. and now brooke is going out with josh. u know..im so tired of being alone...*sigh* oh welllll...

Well it turns out we cudnt get our belly buttons pierced this weekend cuz yesterday we wernt with our legal guardians and today no one was there. So this place is a fucking crazy town. Yah when the sign says Open: Monday-Sunday 1-9 pm...that means there shud be sumone there. So whatever. I can't wait till i move to cali.

My cold is starting to fade away, this morning i woke up and cud barely talk. So i cudnt yell at everyone for waking me up. Seriously i wanted to sleep longer but noooo megan had to use the dayum phone and it was loud and it woke me up.

Im starting to wonder what i shud do about Jordon. I mean, god knows how much i love him, but me not being able to talk to him for weeks at a time kinda makes me wonder. Oh well tho.

Last night we watched the Texas Chainsaw Massacre. It was a good movie. One of the scarier ones that i have seen. Only becuz it was fucking sick. Yuck. I wish sumone wud just blow my head off like that...

Well im going to go depress myself,,,later kidders